After a long and crazy summer ❤️
Hi back everyone. This blog is public again 😘
I am at Heathrow from Istanbul. I had a blast with my sister there. I bought a book for the flight. I have an eight hour flight ahead of me, but will reunite with my daughter soon.
I am in Ann Arbor, at the memorial conference of my deceased love. There is a fabulous art fair. I was in Portland Oregon last week, at another conference. I was in New York City before that, and in Ann Arbor before, and in places I cannot remember. My daughter is vacationing in Mexico. She is very happy. I miss her so much it hurts. My sister texts and talks. My friends text and talk. Life is good.
I take a photo at the border,
Then I walk away,
In a city of shadows,
In a river of grief,
I look across the border,
I don’t want to leave,
The city is empty,
The world capitals in my memories,
I am sad free.
#detroit #canada #border #travel #fashion #poetry #singlemom
Walks in a life
Out of a life
Like a desert rose
The dry cracks
A thirsty ground
A sad brown
A promising sky
She misses him, RIP
#singlemom #desertrose #missyou #fashion
All new, happy, the semester ended- what a year. #new #summerbreak #lifeofaprofessor #river #nature
You climb… You fly higher than the birds.
One of the best hikes in Northern Virginia: Buzzard Rock Trail. Do not forget the bear horn and bear spray. #hiking #outdoors #northernvirginia #virginia #virginiaisforlovers #singlemom #BuzzardRockTrail #mountains
Now I am one of these crazy soccer moms who screams at the field and texts everyone they know when their child scores in a seven year olds’ game. But it feels sooooo goooood, it’s freaking awesome 💥💥😍😍😍🤣🤣🤣 #soccer #parenting #sports #outdoors #weekend #singlemom #crazy
The Math notes, the Virginia wine, the pink laptop, and the White House vine #Sunday #cool #work #singlemom #lifeofaprofessor #photography
I love how my students’ papers make it to different states, planes, luggage 😳, each week #singlemom #lifeofaprofessor #travel #grading #life #fun
#march #snow #ski #Liberty #Pennsylvania #singlemom #outdoors #sports #LibertySkiResort
and I look back at the board and see a mermaid 🧜♀️ #singlemom #lifeofaprofessor #math
#weather #march #singlemom
Most important meal of the day
#wholewheat #toast #morning #breakfast #healthy #singlemom
Keep scrolling down.
Can you spot the same photo?
In a different season?
#outdoors #virginia #seasons
On a train to New York. With a storm and lots of snow. A news reporter asked about train cancellations, a lot of them are, but not this one. Go on. Train. Move.
Picture: Belagio- Vegas
Our annual musical theatre tradition:
The Secret Garden
Meet me in St. Louis
They’re adding up 🎭<<<<
ical #singlemom #thingstodo #tradition
So…. mmmmm…. ahmmmm… somehow we ended up in #Vegas
There’s a song I listened to when I was a teenager…
‘I walk away from you, and our story is more beautiful,
than April’s return,
My one love, no do not cry,
For your tears sculpt into my existence,
I own nothing in this world,
But your eyes, and my tragedy,
Do I travel without you, my night,
Oh shadow of the divine, in my eyes,
My green summer, my sun,
My brightest brightest colors…’
Marking off Virginia vineyards. 300 or so more to go…
Breakfast: Oatmeal, blackberries, dried cranberries, walnuts, brown sugar, coffee #morning #healthy
Gym in the afternoon, because it’s cold.
Work from home, because it’s cold.
I ❤️ the cold ❄️❄️
A purple heart 💜 and a blue light. In love with colors. Staring off into a distant dream. Pursuing for years. Shaping the dream again and again. But it stays, and says, soon…
Now how did I come back from this sun to a fourteen degree weather? 😳 A seventy degree drop in one flight?!
A cruise ship docked in Progresso this morning and I went on a three mile run in a town full of cruisers. Foreigners always recognize each other in different countries 😊🏃♀️ #Mexico #Progresso
We’re gonna wish you A Merry Christmas
We’re gonna wish you A Merry Christmas
And a Happy New Year
And the sun rays spoke,
Do not leave,
Bathe in me some more,
Soak in my warmth,
Oh my sun I can be with you forever,
Like when I was a child,
But now I go…
When I was young,
I did not know,
I had so much,
In my future,
And my greatest desire,
To be home,
Like steps in the sand,
Right before the wave,
Comes and takes it all.
When the snow is blowing at you… #NYC
Homemade chicken liver spread
Good morning. Work. Fall. Cold. Boots.
Riding, punching, subduing the bulls in Texas #dallas #texas #travel #💪🏻
She’s seven already?! How did this happen?! 😳🎂🎁🎊❤️😍
My friend is a #Lufthansa flight attendant. She landed in DC and I got a break from work, mothering, stress, rushing, running, teaching, meetings, writing reports, driving, applying for promotion 😱😳, and had a beautiful morning ☀️
And the swing…
It’s that time of the year again.
Someone woke up not feeling like a vegetable 🥒 and started working.
A coffee shop, coffee mug, nail polish, gay flag, walking mall, and downtown #winchester
This is the last day in New York… then home. How do the months pass. And why?
After a long day at work… #fountain #pier25 #relaxation
I wanted to spend the summer in New York, so I decided to teach a summer session at NYU. Don’t we luck out with our decisions sometimes?!…
Today I am just being. It feels good to be. #walking #nyc #stMarks
I have worked every single day of this summer. Including the weekends. 😫1 more month to go.
I wanna shelter you…
Good morning New York ❤️.
First coffee of the next month and a half #NYC
….and I drive….. #the-road
#homemade #healthy #food #cooking #singlemom
Grateful that my job lets me work from someone’s backyard in some random city while I watch my daughter play outside. She’s on summer break and I can be both with her and working. She still drives me crazy but that’s just how it is with six year olds. But this moment, right now, is peaceful, productive, relaxed, and fulfilling. #single mom
‘I want to look like a pirate!’ #pirateship #playmobil
Good morning 😘. We braved the rapids. Didn’t hit any bridges 💃🏻🎉
I used to have to hire a babysitter to be able to go running on the trails. Today, she went running with me. The whole four miles. #childrengrow #singlemom
This weekend I flew to DC and got Lu back to Michigan. Lu’s like: mom can we get ‘ground sick’ (as in ‘home sick’ but for being too much in a plane away from the ground 🤣)? Now we’re at the pool relaxing and working.
#coffeeshop #work #travel
Why is life so busy? My goal for this summer is to #catch #up
I like this floor #restaurant #work
In Ann Arbor for the month… but I’ll still hop on a plane. Twice.
She got two awards while I was on the road… her teacher asked her to bring a parent. Her father went.
Travel+school+homeschool+her= awards 😘
#breakfast #homemade #food
Good morning ☀️
We are in #Frankfurt. Airports and waiting 😩🙃🙃
Lu loves her mom’s mountains.
Her life… 😘😘😘
Us with our Boeing… overseas bound.
Lu’s Mother’s Day gift this morning… the morning we travel overseas.
Birthday kisses 😘
#healthy #homemade #brunch #food
Happy weekend 😘
A peaceful morning. Mountains and bears.
Prepping talk and watching daughter play in the front yard. Then dressing up. Then giving talk with daughter in the audience.
When you’re a mathematician and shopping for the perfect purse, it’s the topology that matters. #verabradley
One of my favorite coffee shops in New York #mille
So the woman who always blogs about how healthy she eats goes to New York and orders home fries.
I woke up at three in the morning to catch a terribly bumpy flight from Iowa to New York City. I checked into my #airbnb and went to an open mic bar with P.’s sister. The singers were great and inspiring… they reminded me of why I love New York so much. The stand up comedians were awful. They also reminded me of why I love NYC. After that we went for Mexican food at #fonda. I am so picky about Mexican food, but this place is authentic. Their tortillas are hand pressed and that’s very rare to find in the States. We ended the night at the rotating #view lounge on top of the #Marriott. I’ll blog about today, tonight :). Meanwhile happy Sunday 😘.
Food, bars, and of course, grading in #DesMoines
A lone wanderer, again, in this world.
She clung to me in bed last night crying that she doesn’t have friends at school and that no one likes her. I told her to find the good people in her classroom and talk to them, to tell the mean children that she doesn’t like them, and every time she feels sad to think of the people whom she loves in her life, to think that these children are mean because they do not know any better, and have so much beyond their little world that they do not know and have not seen.
But I also told her that am not friends with anyone I went to elementary school with.
#deck #lunch #sun #virginia
This morning :).
Heading to the oven #lunch #weekend #sunday
Calm after the storm…
If I could be anything I wanted to be, I’d be an artist, and a writer, living in a nice studio in New York, and traveling the world- which I already do- sort of. What would you be? And where would you live?
Sitting by the fire, and thinking… how I finally moved, and reset my life. I am still in disbelief I lived in my previous town for two years and a half. It makes me sad. Have you ever grieved some time in your life that you felt was a complete waste and full of only loss? A big setback? That’s how I feel about the past two years and a half. I look at them now from distance, from a new future, from far, and I don’t know how to deal with that.
Cat hug 😘
#homemade #bread #cozy #home #sunday
Lu and I sat at the dining table this morning and had a full breakfast together. No phones, no iPads, no interruptions to the meal or the chats. There are nice things that happen when the child is six. I told from now on, that’s the format of all our meals: Dining table, and no technology.
I finally discovered the trails. #newtown
Lu: mama I really like to talk to you and tell you about my problems.
I spent the whole conference in bed in a hotel room with a horrible flu, tissues, soup, medicine, Gatorade (I don’t know why that one but my friend got it for me and I drank it), pills, envelopes that contained powder that I dumped in tea and drank, stuff, you know, fever… by far the worst conference I ever had. I flew back and when the plane landed, dear did my ears hurt! And everyone in Atlanta was terrified of that half millimeter of snow! Seriously?!
I forgot to get my flu shot.
A Walk In The Woods helped me through the night and through the flight, so happy to be back!
Back to work… not now, tomorrow.
It’s the last day of 2016…. Goodbye, year of grief, and miracles.
Lu’s losing a tooth today… It belongs with the past year.
I cooked, watched a New York movie and read a book. We’ll head out to Alexandria, make a stop at the airport to pick up my ex-husband.
How I miss New York, every new year.
Happy New 2017.
Festive day: the nutcracker ballet to iceskating to dinner to holiday parties. #cozy
Thank you Anon… life has taught me that we don’t always need to be strong, project a perfectly happy image… that takes energy… better save it for healing…
It’s not difficult to travel as a single mom. It’s been my life since she was born (and before). You pack the essentials, ask many questions when you need to, ask for help (in the few times you need help), research the place you’re visiting and convenient and cheap ways to get to the places you need to get to, and most importantly, depending on the age of your child: prepare them- talk to them about where you’re going, how long it will take, what to expect, all the fun AND non-fun things you’d encounter, or they’d have to tolerate. As they grow, they become more excited about travel than you, they know how long things take, the lines at the airports, security checks, etc… They help carry their luggage. Share with them the problems you encounter when you encounter them- they usually suggest solutions… it’s wonderful! Oh! And do not overpack your day, make sure they are ALWAYS rested and have a little haven to come back to, even if it is a tiny hotel room with one twin bed and no curtains…
I looked for a house, found one and… renovated it…
I went to England, Scotland, and Canada…
I got P.’s ashes, two years and a half after we were separated… a year after he died…
I mentored six research students…
I submitted two grants…
I gave one seminar, in England…
I taught a new class…
And another non-new class…
I moved out of town… into our new home…
What A Fall…
I am happy it’s finally… cold.
(Photo: with my brother’s fiancé in #London)
I feel so nostalgic to a time I was not living in… the seventies… But I was born in the eighties. How so? Was it you? This whole time ? Since I was a child?